Eleventh Diary

Because you're not alone

and I'm always there with you

and we'll get lost together

until the light comes pouring through

so when you feel like you're done

and the darkness has won

baby you're not lost

baby you're not lost

"Lost", Michael Buble

When you feel like you have noone to talk to, When light has been turn down and you have absolutely no guide to walk you through, When the path shows that you'll be walking through an uphill that neverends,There's no better time to begin loving.

Loving yourself, loving people that love you, and loving life that is yours.

I have confidence in me. Sometimes it is hard to recognize, but I feel it inside. I know that the time is here for me to endure, so that I will be better prepared to love myself better.

I needed a break from myself, but I learnt that there is no way that I will never escape from me. Who I am, what I feel inside do matter. What I am, what I am capable of doing, I know. 
I always looked for something that will give me the "confidence" to do what I wanted to do-- to become successful in school, work, and even in relationships. But more I looked for it, the more I got lost. The more I'm lost, I found myself losing literally everything-- myself and I.

From now on I will work on myself even harder. I will work on becoming generous towards who I am.  I will accept, and not fight against what I do, what I think and what I feel. And most importantly, I will work on making myself happy. I thought spending time away from people will help me feel better, but I realized that it will never work. I need that drive, motivation, inspiration from everything that I love. As vague as it sounds, love is everything and is everywhere. I just needed to accept and open my eyes to see it.

I will never run away.